you made me fall

i picked myself up

now you did it again

why do you do this so easily??

i asked myself again and again hoping that it's not true

i refuse to believe

and yet, you failed me again and again

you might have done all this unconsciously

but it really hurts

maybe someday i'll tell you

but definitely not now

to think that i even wanted to celebrate it with you

do you know how much it hurts when i found out i was not even told about it???

of course you don't. do i have to throw it away?